Day 1

ok. lets consider today day 1. Even though in reality day 1 was in January. See, I did what they like to call "fall off the wagon". I did good for a couple weeks, and then my mom went into the hospital and i pretty much just hopped off the wagon and blamed it on the fact that I wasnt staying in my own home, and didnt have any way to cook healthy meals. So I just gave up. and then it just never got back to where it was supposed to be. so now im feeling like a failure. my coworker went on a diet at the same time i did, and she lost all this weight, and im jealous. its childish. but it is what it is. so yesterday i ordered 10 minute trainer by tony horton. it seems a little hard, but i want this so bad. i want to be skinny...to be pretty..and to be happy with who i am.